I am writing this as I am looking outside watching the rain and the grey skies move fast. I am writing this at a time when I haven’t been able to speak for the past seven days, and I’m still having major difficulties with my soar throat.
My soar throat has made me think about how fragile life is. And my soar throat has made me rethink work. I know there should be a balance between life and work, but it’s so much easier to see that balance when you’re not 100% fit. I have been forced to stop working. And I have been more or less forced to think about what life has to offer. I am so glad that I only have a soar throat, even though it has made it close to impossible to attend meetings and keep hustling as a solo entrepreneur. I started to ask myself that, what if…
Things could have been so much worse
I have been thinking about quitting. I have been thinking about writers block. And I have been thinking about how important money really is. There are so many things happening inside my head on a regular day, and it seems that there are even more things happening when I’m not as focused as I am used to be.
The thing about quitting, writers block and earning money is actually more or less the same. I need a reward to keep moving forward. To me, money has never been a reward for doing great work. And, looking back at why I started my business, money was never even on my mind, other than that I had to earn money to pay the mortgage and to be able to live. Now, not being able to work 100%, I understand that money is actually a very important part of business. I get a little scared thinking about what would happen if I didn’t have the ability to do great work for a month.
The reason I have been thinking about quitting was that suddenly, I felt that I didn’t have the energy to do what I have been used to doing. I started questioning decisions I have made, and I started to look for the reward. It was exactly the same with writing. It was hard to write. I was looking for a reward. Suddenly, it was like the words didn’t mean a thing.
The rewards can be anything
I have always wanted to make a difference to someone. And even though I have never had much money, I have been lending money to entrepreneurs in need via Kiva. I could have donated to charity, and I am sure I will, but so far Kiva has been part of something I continue to believe in.
I love animals. I haven’t done much to help animals other than to smile at them every time I meet them. I am a vegetarian, so I never eat any of them. They are my friend. But I have always wanted to help animals to get a better life. That’s going to be my reward for doing great work. I don’t know how, but I know that it will happen. I will make sure it’s going to happen.
And some day, I know that I’ll inspire someone to do something extraordinary. That’s going to be part of my reward. I just need to keep working on my rewards.
Do you believe in rewards?
I didn’t think that rewards would be such an important part of my business. I really want to accomplish something, and it’s not something based on any details in a marketing strategy. I do my best to help my clients and I love marketing, but in the end, I am thinking about the rewards.
Do you believe in rewards?