He stood behind me. I was about to walk across the street. I heard him talk on the phone. He was clearly upset. I wanted to turn around, but, I didn’t. I was waiting for the light to turn green. His voiced cracked:
Do you know what; more people would learn from their mistakes, if they weren’t so busy denying them.
He stopped talking. I started walking, and I kept thinking about what he just said.
2013 is almost over. It feels like I’m looking at it from a distance. I’ve experienced some failures, and I have experienced some really great things. But, overall, I’m thinking about one thing, one thing that makes me feel alive, and that’s how important progress is.
I have been focusing on my mistakes. I know when I have made a mistake. I admit my mistakes, not just to myself, but to everyone around me. I always want to become a better person. I always want to do better. I don’t compare myself to others. I didn’t compare myself to others in 2013, and I won’t be doing it in 2014.
The man that was standing behind me was a lot smaller than I thought he would be. He was tiny, and no more than five feet tall. He was wearing a hat and a coat. If I had to guess, I would say that he was more than 70 years old. He looked a lot calmer than I imagined when I heard him talk on the phone. He passed me when I stopped to feed a black-backed gull. He was talking to himself, I could here him saying something about people should be more friendly.
I was feeding the black-backed gull, and the bird was staring at me. I felt that we’ve become friends. He was waiting for more, and I was giving it to him, every time he looked at me. When I’m with animals, my mind drifts away, and I start thinking about things that I don’t control. I feel vulnerable. I feel that I’m part of something so big, something that I don’t understand. I feel that everything in this world is connected.
How to leave people breathless
I keep thinking about the man’s high pitched voice. I keep thinking about how he said the words:
… more people would learn from their mistakes, if they weren’t so busy denying them.
I believe that the only way to leave people breathless is to show vulnerability. Open up, show people who you really are; not only your strengths, but how you’ve failed. Tell the story, like you tell it to yourself, when nobody is listening.