I have been thinking a lot about this. It’s very personal, and I’ve been hiding it inside me for way too long.
The reason I started my business, was that I wanted to be more flexible. I am not saying that it was the reason I quit my job at the University, but it’s the reason why I started my business, and the reason why I didn’t get a different job (or start a different type of business).
I am being hard on myself. But, today, I believe that everything I did was for the wrong reason. I know, I read it everywhere. It should have been all about passion. But it wasn’t.
I keep hustling. I keep doing a lot. My clients are mostly happy. I still haven’t received any complaints. And, I will keep pushing. I am not saying that I don’t enjoy what I am doing. But, it’s time I start to listen to myself, and it’s time I start being me.
I love working with people
The first thing I realized when I started my business, is that I really miss working with people on a daily basis, and I miss co-workers. I love to write, and I really enjoy being alone, but I miss the relationships, and I miss people walking into my office without knocking.
As a solopreneur, I don’t get the chance to work with as many people as before, but I do my best to visit my clients as often as possible. And, I’ve been thinking about moving my office to a different location, where I get to meet more people, and more people who are in the same business as I am.
It’s important to me, that I understand why I started my business. It’s important to me to understand what I should do about it, in order to make things turn out the way I really want them to. But, even though I started my business for the wrong reason, it doesn’t mean that I can’t continue being a solopreneur, and it doesn’t mean that I can’t turn my business into exactly what I love.
Doing Less, and Being More
I believe that my next step is doing less, and start being more. I’ve tried my best to be visible everywhere, and I have tried my best to be available for my clients 24 hours a day. And, I’ve said yes to everything that’s come my way. I have tried my best to answer the phone as soon as I’ve heard the first beep. I’ve replied to every single email as soon as I’ve received them.
Thinking back, I believe that I should have been more strategic. I should have focused on a niche, and I should have focused on a few clients. I should have listened to what I really care about, and my business should be part of who I really am.
But, it’s not to late.
Passion and People
I embrace change. And, I have met some amazing people on my journey. My journey will continue. But, it will be on a different path. I’m moving from flexibility, to passion and people. I will still enjoy my freedom, but on a completely different level.
Things are about to change my friend.